tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-44754853346823623242024-03-22T07:55:17.067+08:00ButterFleet..........my journey.......butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.comBlogger209125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-30291519346690137352015-09-16T09:25:00.000+08:002015-09-16T09:30:19.820+08:00Last write-up<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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At some point, u have to stop what u are looking for,</div>
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What u are hunting for</div>
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What u are seeking for</div>
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The urge of knowing the answer~</div>
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The desperate emotions to know the result~</div>
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The pray asking for changing~</div>
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But what i did realised, ALLAH swt wrote the most beautifull storyline of mylife n every muslims</div>
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Miracle</div>
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Surprise</div>
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Test </div>
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I keep my journey EAT.PRAY.LOVE</div>
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Coz "life must go on"</div>
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This end up of my last storyline write up for this </div>
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Butterfleet.blogspot</div>
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-32378687907466247842015-09-09T14:35:00.001+08:002015-09-09T14:35:58.151+08:00Here we are again<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Kun fa ya kun</div>
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Berserah & redha</div>
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Masih dicabar kesabaran aku</div>
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Namun,aku guna kawarasan utk tabah</div>
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Aku menangis,ramai juga yg aku tangiskan</div>
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Oh life~ </div>
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Fuck it!</div>
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This anxiety</div>
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This curiousity</div>
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This humality </div>
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;( poor me. Fuck! Poor me</div>
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-43416221795458354662015-08-23T01:49:00.001+08:002015-09-13T23:23:31.820+08:00Pinjaman<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Selalu dengar, Allah hadirkan seseorang dlm hidup seseorang kerana bersebab..</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Dunia ini pinjaman</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Mcm loan, kita pinjam tapi kena pulangkan</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Begitu juga tuhan pinjamkan kita seseorang untuk dikenali..</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Tapi Dia maha esa, boleh bila2 masa menghilangkan seseorang</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Aku xsalahkan dgn apa berlaku. Redha.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Aku kuat,inshaallah....</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Ni second time aku dibuang/ diabaikan...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Aku manusia,wanita dan ibu..</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Jika ada aturanMu yang bisa mengubah kesedihanku, aku memohon doronganMu ya Allah...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Yes. Aku bersedia.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Amin</span></div>
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-74142159591124126632015-08-20T20:51:00.001+08:002015-08-20T20:51:17.226+08:00Permudahkanlah<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Ya allah</div>
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Aku hambamu yang hina. </div>
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Aku hambamu yang lemah</div>
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Tunjuklah aku jalan hidupku dgn nur hidayahmu</div>
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Aku sungkur,akur</div>
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Berikan aku ruang ketenangan, </div>
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Hilangkan kesedihan</div>
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Ya allah, yang maha pengasuh dan maha penyayang</div>
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-703939617461446982015-08-17T12:01:00.000+08:002015-09-13T23:20:39.835+08:00Heart shape<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Y i must deal with this?</div>
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Ya allah</div>
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Apa aturanmu? Aku xmahu layan situasi drama yang hanya melibatkan budak cina 19 tahun,masih mentah, sosial,masih belum tahu fokus dunia, wahai sharon.</div>
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U can have him if he love u too </div>
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Jangan bermain dgn hati, sesungguh perlu pengorbanan</div>
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And my dear mr.Y</div>
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you may have your fun love. Leave the reality n this boring life ;( </div>
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Ya allah ya tuhanku,</div>
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dgn mu aku selalu berbisik</div>
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Tuliskan aku jalan yang terbaik</div>
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Jika perjalanan ke Jannahmu, perbaiki diri kami yang daif dan sesat ini</div>
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Jika jalanmu perpisahan, ko kuatkanlah aku demi anak anakku Ian Harith dan Nia Amany.</div>
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Amin,ya rabbalalamin </div>
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17aug2015...</div>
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-701230848711372652015-08-16T01:22:00.001+08:002015-09-13T23:21:46.119+08:00September coming<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
A year come, a year go<br />
Here is my story dated 16Aug 2015 1:12am<br />
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Saddess,confussed,angered,frustrated as i found more more evidence of my unfaithful marriage story.<br />
Day by day,hour by hour, minutes by minutes i am waiting for Allah help.<br />
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Until today~ none<br />
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Maybe its not the time yet.<br />
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My question: then when???<br />
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Wheres the miracle?<br />
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As far as now i am dealing with tears,stressed and dillema- like dumb<br />
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Not many days to go 6th Sept<br />
I want this story end.<br />
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If HE want to back to this family, please do so.<br />
Fuck all the shit scandalisme with anyone. Back to us<br />
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If u goes 50/50, oh my dear... Please separated with us :(<br />
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If he decide nothing change, then SAYONARA to us<br />
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Custody of our kids,with me.<br />
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Dun bring the risk n harmful this family- wishing~<br />
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Dear Mr.Y please decide.<br />
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-44301493575770634182015-08-06T00:31:00.000+08:002015-08-06T00:31:34.576+08:00Lima.ogos.2015<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I am not trying to run</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But how to hide from something "haunted"?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">When i am trying to reach him, then i failed as my mind haunted by something that couldnt be erased?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I talked with someone, asking bout to cure / mend the broken hearted</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Answers: still same. Only me,myself could change it</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I asked second men, answer, only u the one who can change the story</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">There only ways i figure it out:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">-drugs / medication</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">- new hobby</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">-new type of friend</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">-count on theraphy</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">- create 2nd me (dillusional)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But, i will make a choice (the above) once i give up "one day"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Now, with my rationale,i keep n giving my soul to dear mighty Allah swt</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Dear Ian & Nia, u are my strenght</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Bless us. Show us the right way</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Ya Allah~</span></div>
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-22486896779837536282015-07-29T16:37:00.002+08:002015-07-29T16:37:55.253+08:00Deceiving<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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In relationship</div>
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Better if,</div>
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We both are friend.... Lively & lovely</div>
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In us,we dont have it</div>
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Its ok. I'll better walk-away </div>
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#day29nia</div>
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-80590071967745056242015-07-28T22:25:00.002+08:002015-07-28T22:25:40.580+08:00Who need space?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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The one u hurt</div>
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The one who's hurting</div>
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For me</div>
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How?</div>
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#day28Nia </div>
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-22958392057415982552015-07-19T18:03:00.000+08:002015-07-19T18:03:10.703+08:00Undecided<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Ya allah</div>
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Things still undone</div>
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And it wont be done, if i didnt do something</div>
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Y i have to face this? </div>
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Oh holy syawal</div>
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The cherish syawal was never be the same again~</div>
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Bye bye ramadhan</div>
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#ramadhandontgo #scarestthingever #alone #loser #syawal2015</div>
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-58970030882733892292015-07-04T01:27:00.000+08:002015-07-04T01:27:05.378+08:001 july 2015: miracle. Syukur<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Waiting.. Waiting.. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Now masa yg aku tunggu,tiba... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">My little princess.. Miss Nia.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Syukur padamu ya Allah.. Now keluarga yg ku bina 3+1</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Namun, aku masih ada SATU lagi agenda yang belum selesai :(</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">This agenda was the 2nd major thinggy of my life..</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I can't pray / sujood to u Ya Allah. But, i can warmth my dhua to u...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">How my journey story? How u write it? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I can forgive to someone, but my mind keep recall. Makes the anger n drama recall.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Cant forget.... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I try try try try, even until today, the joyous day of Nia on my arm</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">BUT ~</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">;( Oh my 2nd chapter... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I belief u write the best, kun fayakun </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Sigh~ </span></div>
butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-63021446381449534222015-06-10T22:06:00.000+08:002015-06-10T22:06:00.700+08:00Mungkin ini tertulis oleh Mu yg maha esa<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Ini takdir..</div>
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Ini yg tertulis</div>
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Sudah 37minggu.. Aku cuba kuat</div>
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Banyak cabaran...</div>
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Sungguh diduga..</div>
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Mungkin bukan diriku yg dia cintai</div>
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<em>untuk apa, untuk apa cinta tanpa kejujuran<br /> untuk apa cinta tanpa perbuatan, tak ada artinya<br /> untuk apa, untuk apa cinta tanpa pembuktian<br /> untuk apa status kita pertahankan bila sudah tak lagi cinta</em></div>
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<!-- Usage of azlyrics.com content by any third-party lyrics provider is prohibited by our licensing agreement. Sorry about that. --><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat<br /> I shouldn't be crying,<br /> tears were for the weaker days<br /> I'm stronger now, or so I say,<br /> But something's missing<br /><br /> Whatever it is,<br /> it feels like it's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror<br /> Whatever it is,<br /> it's just laughing at me<br /> And I just wanna scream<br /><br /> What now? I just can't figure it out<br /> What now? I guess I'll just wait it out (wait it out)<br /> What now? Oh, oh, oh, oh! What now?<br /><br /> I found the one, he changed my life<br /> But was it me that changed<br /> And he just happened to come at the right time<br /> I'm supposed to be in love<br /> But I'm numb again<br /><br /> Whatever it is,<br /> it feels like it's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror<br /> Whatever it is,<br /> it's just sitting there laughing at me<br /> And I just wanna scream<br /><br /> What now? I just can't figure it out<br /> What now? I guess I'll just wait it out (wait it out)<br /> What now? Please tell me<br /> What now?<br /><br /> There's no one to call 'cause I'm just playing games with them all<br /> The more I swear I'm happy, the more that I'm feeling alone<br /> 'Cause I spent every hour just going through the motions<br /> I can't even get the emotions to come out<br /> Dry as a bone, but I just wanna shout<br /><br /> What now? I just can't figure it out<br /> What now? I guess I'll just wait it out (wait it out)<br /> What now? Somebody tell me<br /> What now?</span><br /> <strong><span style="font-size: large;">I don't know where to go<br /> I don't know what to feel<br /> I don't know how to cry<br /> I don't know oh oh why<br /> I don't know where to go<br /> I don't know what to feel<br /> I don't know how to cry<br /> I don't know oh oh why<br /> I don't know where to go<br /> I don't know what to feel<br /> I don't know how to cry<br /> I don't know oh oh why</span></strong> So what now? </span></div>
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<strong><span style="font-family: "Courier New", Courier, monospace;">Make sure to keep my distance<br /> Say, "I love you," when you're not listening<br /> How long 'til we call this love, love, love?</span></strong><br />
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-42998909096335735502015-04-27T10:56:00.000+08:002015-04-27T10:56:13.233+08:00passenger~<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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ya allah, kuatkan aku</div>
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ya allah........ peliharalah akidah aku. Aku ingin belajar dan menjadi ISTERI YANG SOLEHAH & IBU YANG MITHALI.</div>
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amin amin~</div>
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-35792753640310628942015-04-03T14:31:00.002+08:002015-04-03T14:31:44.920+08:00more reading ~<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-50035372909557296522015-03-30T00:06:00.002+08:002015-03-30T00:06:55.551+08:00End weekend<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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1. Their mind have been opened</div>
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Or</div>
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2. Their hearts have been broken</div>
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Me? </div>
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Mute</div>
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-39382150744040118562015-03-23T09:27:00.001+08:002015-03-23T09:27:09.779+08:00start deleting<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">today</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">clearly.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">understood.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">DELETED.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">............ more will deleting..........</span></div>
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-50097356013538857592015-03-21T18:47:00.002+08:002015-03-21T18:47:29.552+08:00Its time<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Its time.</div>
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Ya allah, beri aku kekuatan agar tindakanku ini bukan dibawah pengaruh syaitan.</div>
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Wahai kekasihku, redhakan apa yang akan berlaku. </div>
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Halalkan semua ;,(</div>
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butterfleethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16105196405793473480noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4475485334682362324.post-61263510546080511712015-02-16T10:00:00.001+08:002015-02-19T23:13:04.429+08:00Detik hitam 12 feb 2015<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Wow<br />
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Aku dah agak kesedihan aku sejak beberapa bulan bukan kerana mood swing seorang wanita hamil. Rasa xtenang. Rasa ingin bertanya, tapi seperti aku tau jawapan.<br />
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12 feb 2015 pukul 10:30pm<br />
Dgn kuasa allah taala, dan mungkin petunjuk dari yang maha esa, jawapan utk keresahan aku terjawab. ;(<br />
Tapi aku tenang. Tapi ape perlu aku buat?<br />
Dgn kekuatan 20bulan kandungan,walaupun si kecil dah menendang2,tapi aku gagahkan hati nk berjumpa dgn si tuan badan iaitu SUAMIKU yang berada di kedai mkn.<br />
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Aku cuba tenang. Aku xmau dlm stres atau dlm kurang waras.<br />
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Aku tanye dia dgn tenang, tapi jawapannya n riak wajahnya, ternyata......<br />
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Aku x suke muke tu :( X mengapa, aku perlu pikir future planning.<br />
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Tq ya allah.. Sebab beri aku kekuatan.<br />
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Dan melangkah dari dia, melangkahlah aku, takkan pusing.<br />
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Aku x salah pada dia. Dia muda,bekerjaya, bercita tinggi. Yang aku kesal, betul katanya, aku bukan pilihan dia yang tepat, bukan isteri yang baik.<br />
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Bagi aku pulak,persoalan malu. Kerana:<br />
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**Manusia yang aku pilih... Yg ketika itu dia beriya mahukan aku sebagai penganti tunangnya"exnya" dan amat sayangkan aku<br />
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** manusia yang aku pilih, aku bayangkan akan berani utk membawa aku dan masa depanku, walau dlm apa keadaan<br />
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** manusia yg aku jadikan pasangan halal dan sah ini, kenapa xdapat kekal hingga akhir hayat. Kenapa dia mesti give-up dan mencari baru??<br />
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Mmmmm... Ya allah :( besar ujianmu ya allah.<br />
Yang pasti, aku harus kekal berdiri. Walaupun tidur dan makanku agak terjejas, mungkin baby di dalam kandunganku juga sedih, dan cuba erat bersamaku<br />
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:( sedih lagi bila aku sudah terpikir, bagaimana aku di labor room utk kali kedua. :(<br />
Tiada lagi kongsian nama bayi kedua kami...<br />
Tiada lagi ~ ya allah ya tuhan.<br />
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Aku memohon darimu ya allah. Tenang dan kuatkan aku untuk menghadapi dugaanmu ini. Aku memohon,jalan terbaik dari mu. Successkan mereka berdua di syarikat mazelensastudio itu.<br />
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Amin amin ya rabbal al amin :(<br />
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