mid-Ramadhan

kejap je mase berjalan......

dah middle of Ramadhan...

manage jugak buat 2 kali terawih..

 

Start Ramadhan with some crisis- internal and I managed to settle it down before it getting worst and more complicated- especially understanding..

if I could tell Ian-my son, I think the leftover and hurtful feeling easy to throw away..

 

the hurt

the misunderstood

the miserable condition

the unfinished history

repeated hated

 

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wow... I think I wont fasting and celebrate Ramadhan.. :)

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 May the world and people surround bring peace and love

Not all contemplate- to be easy

Not all goes like we wish

Not all comes as lovely as bouquet

But, Redha,pray and be good for everybody

I knew I did hurted someone

I know some unwise thought, I bring anger to someone

I know I cant inhere for someone who need me

 

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but truthful, I am trying to be the as good as one

mommy-wife-worker-friend-daughter

 

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Weekenders with Little Masham Ian

 

Boring time at Office in Ramadhan - straight look

 

Left posed

 

Right posed

you are my flesh & my blood... Ian Harith

Today 10July - first Ramadhan. Begin with good weather and half-wind mood. Ian turn 96days today.... how excited I am as he turn to do bubble saliva, looking straight to us, smiling at me, groaning, bossy and cheeky face.... so adorable and handsome....

 

wish all dear bloggers / readers happy Ramadhan 2013

 

 

 

follow Babycenter.com there are 7 signs your child love you :

 

1.She stares into your eyes: Newborns love to look at faces, and yours is her favorite. That soulful gaze is a hardwired survival instinct designed to attract love and attention from a caregiver, says neuroscientist Lise Eliot.

 

2. He recognizes your smell: Given the choice between a dozen fragrant roses and your sweaty, milk-stained T-shirt, your baby will go for the shirt every time. "Even a 1-week-old will turn his head toward a breast pad soaked with his mother's milk," says Eliot. To your newborn, nothing smells sweeter than you.

 

3.She smiles at you: The first time your baby gives you a true, fabulous grin is a magical moment. It's her way of saying "I love you."

 

4.He talks to you: Your baby's very earliest coos will be directed at you or another trusted caregiver, says Eliot – he won't start by talking to himself. He'll use this early language (called protoconversation) to engage with you, so answer back! You're both laying the groundwork for real conversation later.

 

5.She wants you around: About halfway through your baby's first year, you'll notice that she's not happy with your absence. She may scrunch up her face or cry when you step out of the room, and she'll smile upon your return – a sign of her growing attachment.

 

6.He shares your interests: Whether it's a display of holiday lights or the dirty laundry, if you scrutinize it, your baby will do the same. Called mutual attention, this behavior can start when your baby is just a few months old, but it's more pronounced at 9 to 12 months. "It's a sign that your child is engaged with you and values what you're paying attention to," says pediatrician Harvey Karp.

 

7.She uses you as a shield: Don't be surprised if your baby buries her head in your chest when someone new appears on the scene. "Stranger anxiety" is a normal phase, and turning to you for protection means your baby loves you and trusts you to keep her safe.

lirik pickable

Ku dengar kau cinta sangat padanya
Ku dengar hatimu kini miliknya
Dia kan menjadi teman sehidup dan semati
Aku menjadi sahabatmu

 

Siksanya mengakui kau teman biasa
Terpaksa ku terima itu hakikatnya
Yang pasti aku tak mau lupakan cinta
Kau percik api membakar kenangan lama

 

Aku tak tahu menilai cintamu
 Aku tak mampu pertahankan

Tinggalkanku, perlahan-lahan ku terima
Semakin ku sakit, semakin kau bahagia

 Mengapakah aku jadi lemah
Sungguh ku tak sangka dia membawa jantungku bersamamu

Yang pasti aku tak mau lupakan cinta
Kau percik api membakar kenangan lama

 

Aku tak tahu menilai cintamu
Aku tak mampu pertahankan

Tinggalkanku, perlahan-lahan ku terima
Semakin ku sakit, semakin kau bahagia

 Mengapakah aku jadi lemah
Sungguh ku tak sangka dia membawa jantungku bersamamu, bersamamu

Mengapakah aku jadi lemah
Sungguh ku tak sangka dia membawa jantungku bersamamu

 

 

hafiz : Bahgiamu deritaku

"you say it best when u'll say nothing at all" - Ronan Keating

lyrics...

just an old song written and sung by Ronan Keating.

Todays updated, 17th of June was my first day back to office after my 3 months confinement. I drove today as to practice my driving skills. Sharing car with husband may say- a lovely time spend together. Chit chatting or giving opinion on others. Its call independence couple. Working like robot. Depends. But as workoholic husband type - LIKE HIM, i prefer to drive morning. So he can sleep or get little nap. (He almost night get in bed 3am- pity).

With understanding, tolerate and negotiaiting is A MUST between us.

its now 3pm...

and i'm in going to process handover back all the task that pending or unfinished.

Whats new?

- my status to "mommy"

- my energy > gain

- my unit > new colleagues

- my office name change to KPK

- my baby turn 73 days old

- i'm started to wear fully covered hijab

- Baby Ian away from me more than half day as i already return to work

- and today cant wait to do gym with my Army. New activity. Yeay

-to be continue-

18 Mar 2013- Its call mourning Monday

(continue....previously posted)

a weekend passed. I've got a day (*half day working last Friday...) accompany my husband to get a set of Imac 27'' at Capsquare Mall. 10pm, spend 2 hours at studio for next video clips for Juzzthin & Nabil Mentor.
Left to Mentara.

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Saturday - as early as 6am, me waking up all boys- hubby, and his crews who stay a night for early video shooted at Semenyih Dam.

THE DAY OF JUZZTHIN + NABIL mentor VIDEO CLIPS

Glad, they succeed arrived at the lake- morning fogged and freshed!  

They change location for second verse, at Bukit Ampang KL CITY viewed shot.

Last, behind golf course KDE roaden silent area - jogged track.

4pm, they arrived home. And snored like huge big shipped honked! ha ha

As planned before, they all going for FutureMusic Asia which happened 15&16 March- Sepang. Party!! i'm still into it  :(  but due to my condition, it's fine.

I'm really support my hubster to go for that party becoz, Temper Trap will performed, and others rave/trance. He put an effort to get the free ticket (which actualy, i planned to buy for him, early bird last few weeks...)

reason: exhausting, all the five tixs he gave to his friends- Prof.

This kindda of lifestyle that couldn't be fade out.

There are parenthood who still attached with events/parties/discotique/liveband/concert just as their- make fun/ lively. My coolest party goers friends/ cousins, they legally thrown their jive/ heart to this kind of lifestyle  :)  some of them, spend for flight ticket+accomodations in other country, to see their fav artist.....

cool huh  :)

Not an arguement / justification / prejudiced anyone.
whatever

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Sunday- dozzy dosed with my own drugs- itchy drugs...my skin... really dozzed me out.
11 we wake up. I get bathed and realy to get outting. Mission- baby stuff. My planned just as One Baby world Taman Permata- baby shop.
http://www.onebabyworld.com

I said to hubster- just 1 hour... please...
and he pleased me, but we stop at Nasi Minang Taman Melawati- for lunch.
At the shop, we spend rm250 for swaddle wrap,baby stuff cleaner liquid, flusk Thermos,bath tub, netting bath tub and washcloth and 2 bra's.

on the way, we stop at MBO and catch wayang (sweet time....feel like the last wayang treat..) oh no... dun think badly.

5-8pm we at home ZzZzZzZz...... And by 8.30pm, my lovelina friends call treat for babyshower dinner. As to my request, just a dinner and catch story. Dun drop me any party... not realy into it.

gathering end 10.30pm... thank gals...

 Eelar new looks, Hanna Montana, AzeDz 8mths Baby Bump, Diana Luna and Me - 17 March 2013

towards Middle March 2013

My baby bump now turn 35weeks....

its big as pamelo )honey-dew...and the weight is around 2kg plus...

Inside, the little one inside punching and kicking, and yelled "get me out of here mummy!!"

i swiftly,gently rubbing my tummy said everytime "be good boy, good person, and PLEASE DONT KICKED TOO MUCH! "  (not yelling- hahaha...just say smoothly)

pain gaining day by day... but as others said, good for reflactive and active.

my bedding time - countless

my backache - speechless

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(to be continue)

one more dugaan

its crutial and play with my emotional...

its between skin + itchiness + daily mood...it start when my pregnancy in trimester 3 or u can say 33weeks... God... so itchy.. due to this, i google a lots and they mentioned about PUPP- papules and plagues of Pregnancy..... and one more POP- Prurigo of pregnancy...skin disease that only attack mother of first child- mostly. For second pregnancy, this sympthom less/ no more.

:(   ugly feet...no more beauty feet + sleepless + scratch only on top feet skin + swollen too much... not leg....

 insyallah... i'll pray the beauty turn back, once baby deliver...

am i been bitten? No. Its just a small watery bubble looks like chicken pox..this is POP symthom..and so itchy. Through my reading n blog, it happen on 3rd trimester, first child pregnancy,baby boy,34weeks and above. If more worst, it may cause from kidney failure from mother. The urine turn yellow n dark color.

me? not yet..... just itchy + my urine stil lighter/ whity

this what i used so far this week since the POP started on my hand. Eucerin was good- fragrance free and the Econazie was the cream me and husband used to when there is ithcyness on our part of body- it for dispurse for fungal. Dun spread the itchy please. That Econazine duty.

Through internet reading, i must get shower foam PH7 + cream clobetasol + tablet zyrtec...

our photo...while waiting doctor call for consultation at UMRA HOSPITAL....My baby bump was 32 weeks....